auggie*

2007-01-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVED !

WWW.AUDREEEYY-.BLOGSPOT.COM

PLEASE RELINK

2007-01-01T15:51:00.000+08:00

Open up my eyes,

flooded with daylight.

Another sleepless night,

turns color black &white.

With all the things I've said,

there is just regret

repeating in my head.

Hands into a fist,

static in my head .

Now I'm sitting face to face with loneliness.

What did I expect?

Did I see forever in you?

I never wanted it to hurt more than it should.

I hope you're satisfied,

I never could.

Time to close my eyes,

forget about this mess.

Tried to fix this tragic loss of innocence.

But how can I forget,

the things I haven't done.

When everything is dead?

Can't you see that you left me,

here on my own .

Give me one good reason

why I should let go.

With my hands around your neck,

who will stop me now?

I never wanted it to hurt more than it should.

I hope you're satisfied,

I never could .

2007-01-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

this is so incredibly freaky.

it's like 2007 already.

ohmygod,

it's 2007.

2006-12-30T00:13:00.000+08:00

there's this voice in my head screaming

'you bloody idiot !'

i can't believe i was that stupid to believe you.

you never got over her .

you made me feel like i was special.

i was your fcking rebound or plaything.

zomg

i am that stupid .

someone just shoot me,

this time i'm fcking serious .

2006-12-29T14:44:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY :D

sorry i haven't updated in

253606453968406 days !

comp screwed up :/

anyways,

the highlights of the holidays :

i went to HONG KONG !

woooooooo shopped, shopped, shopped.

then went to Perth with the netballers,

for training of course.

visited my dad too .

that obviously sucked big time.

so many people owe me dates,

ambra, {our beach date!}

clare,

nat, {you chee ko pek}

eunice & so many more !

oh yeah,

eunice,

if we don't meet up soon so

that i can pass you your gift,

i'm so gonna use it.

(;

2006-11-06T18:55:00.000+08:00

I don't understand

how people say

'lose a loved one' .

you can't possibly lose a loved one,

when you know exactly where they are.

2006-11-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

you pick up the familiar shape of your pen knife,

hold it just a little over your wrist.

and with a swift movement,

slit the delicate skin open.

you watch,

as your own blood drips,

making a bright red stain

on the white formica table .

you think 'ow, that hurt'

but you have no idea how much

hurt I've been through the past few days.

I sit on my bed,

the silence deafening.

as I clutch my pillow,

so tight that my knuckles turn stark white,

willing myself not to cry.

but the tears come anyway .

just like they always do .

If I had my way,

I'd never get over you.

Today's the day,

I pray that we make it through .

Make it through the fall,

make it through it all .

2006-11-02T17:36:00.000+08:00

I've just read Plain Truth,

written by Jodi Picoult for like the fourth time .

and I think there's one part

which is really meaningful .

"He had not said he loved her,

but that did not matter.

It was how he acted,

how he treated her,

that was a truer measure than

any words he could say -

deeds were the proof of affection,

not three little syllables

that signified nothing.

He would tell her when it was over;

when it would not cheapen

what was happening between them ."

the story's about an eighteen year old

Amish girl who was suspected of

killing her own newborn .

and then this big shot attorney comes

to help save her from being

thrown into prison .

thats when two cultures collide,

cause the Amish have

totally different views of life

than normal people do.

it moves seamlessly from

psychological drama to courtroom suspense.

and it's a fascinating portrait of Amish life,

and a moving exploration of

the bonds of

love, friendship,

and the heart's most complex choices .

Plain Truth is one hell of a book.

2006-10-31T20:52:00.000+08:00

WO DER XIN HEN TONG AHH

I'm heartbroken

okay,

I'm exaggerating .

guess what !

yesterday during trng,

I pulled my thigh muscle .

IT HURTS ALOT ):

i swear,

these few trngs I keep injuring myself .

this is a sign from God,

telling me that I'm not cut out to

be a netballer .

after like,

nearly four years of playing netball,

He tells me this now.

rahhhh .

&BECAUSE i pulled my thigh muscle,

its really hard for me to walk

Hence,

I couldnt go for Ambra's halloween party

which started like a while ago .

poopoo

I feel like such a loooner .

well,

I just hope everyone else has

a smashing good time there !

BUT BUT BUT !

theres this teenyweeny

part of me thats happy

I'm not gonna announce it to the world though.

It's for myself to know,

and for SOME of you to find out

-winks !

HAPPY HALLOWEEEEN :D

From the minute that you got my attention,
I was taken and I have to mention.
I was trying to not let it show,
but I knew I wasn't gonna let you go .
From the way that you came right to me,
looking all hot with the style that threw me.
No one would've ever known it,
you would be the one who take this heart and hold it .

2006-10-30T11:09:00.000+08:00

AUDREY HAS TO GO BACK FOR TRNG ALRDY !

why?

because,

my finger's alrdy recovered.

although it kinda hurts when i bend it .

but i still have to go for trng.

poopoo .

anywayyyy !

last night was considered quite fun,

i mean,

compared to what else thats

been happening in my

oober boring life .

____ is horny !

HAHAHA .

okay,

shant say anymore,

i dont remember much anyway .

Clear liqour &cloudy eye,

too early to say goodnight .

You have stolen my heart.

2006-10-27T13:04:00.000+08:00

i am extremely bored right now.

i just had a super lame conversation

with the one and only NUTFART .

here goes !

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
woowoo

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
?

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
u seeem high

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
yea i took a whole pill of ecstacy

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
overdose baby

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
haha a

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
cant even type the easiest word haha properly

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
what word

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
hah

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:

oh you ?

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
you

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
u typed this

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
haha a

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
i tell you ah

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
people high, is LIDDAT ONE

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
oh really.

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
then why i not like that when im high huh?

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
because you neber take drugs

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
hahaaaaaaaaaaaaa

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
call police!

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
-faints

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
pick up phone

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
dials 999

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
"hello?clementi police station how may i help you?"

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
"erm i found someone taking drugs estsacy!"

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
"okay we will go arrest her where is she now?"

audd; the boys stare, we smile back says:
-audrey in the background making 'woowoo' noises

&natalie break dance not hearts; says:
"blahblahblah..."

i feel so lame right now .

someone get me a wheelchair

-.-

i hope hope hope,

i can go tanning at nutfart's place!

i seriously need and alternate way outta here

2006-10-26T17:58:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU EVERYONE !

thanks for all the weird stuff,

especially the

thong,

colourful bra straps,

bikini,

&the condom that looks like a hippo .

HAHAHA .

AND THANKS TO STEFF &ABBY !

though you didnt get me anything,

I DONT MIND.

ABBY:

my chingala(chinese + bangla) jiejie !

please, DONT get me anything.

tell daddy also .

I LOVE YOUUUUUU
more than anything else in the whole wide world .

Is it okay if I need you tonight?

Thought I'd check &see if it's alright.

Cause' the stars seem sort of far away,

the night is rather dark .

Is it okay if I need you tonight?

Don't get me wrong,

I know tomorrow's another day.

&I'm strong,

I'll survive whatever comes my way .

But, tonight the wind is howling,

&I'm chained out in the yard.

&For tonight,

being alone is just too hard.

It's a very long time till the morning light,

&since we're both here in the dark,

can I ask one thing of you?

Is there any chance that you might want me too?

2006-10-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

I SPRAINED MY INDEX FINGER AGAIN !

in case you didnt know,

last thursday during trng,

i sprained my index finger.

&then on monday's trng,

i sprained it AGAIN .

thus, i didnt go for trng today.

oh,

to add on to the pain,

MY TOENAIL BROKE.

no it didnt break,

the whole frickin' thing fell off.

OUCCCCCHHHH !

oh well !

if you could see me right now,

you'd just be laughing your head off.

im typing with my middle finger .

hehh .

anyways !

today was so incredibly boring.

we had like two effing fire drills,

&two recesses !

reason?

because the school couldnt think

of any Post-Exam-Activity for us.

haha .

we had to like RUN from the classroom

to the stupid baskteball court,

assemble there,

&take attendance

WITHIN THREE MINUTES.

which school is capable of that?

my poor toe !

Miss Jo Teo made us run all the way ):

i was in serious pain.

I'm afraid,

if I lost you,

to fall through the cracks,

&lose my track in this crazy, lonely world

2006-10-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

it's FRIDAAAAY !

which is usually a depressing day,

for me .

so,

had the dumb learning journey thingy .

oober boring

after school,

ambra, yuanny &I

went over to AC's place .

SHE PONNED SCHOOL ONCE AGAIN .

suntanned there !

although it was more like

hazetanning .

so we just swaaaam.

yuanny &I taught ambs how

to do the hip hop dance thing

since she missed out on it.

HA !

then ambs dragged me around the pool .

that was probably the only time

he wasnt on my mind .

THANK YOU GIRLS

i feel sick .

everyone seems to be either

happy, or happily in love.

Aden's in love.

Jessica's in love.

Ambra's in love.

Amanda Choong's in love.

Lizzie Lee's in love.

Daniel's in love.

Eugene's in love [okay. it isnt LOVE, but still!]

Clare's in love.

I want you to want me,

I need you to need me .

&I'd love you to love me

2006-10-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

HAD TRAINING TODAAAAY !

for the first time since the beginning of September .

wooowooo

i was actually scared shitless.

i thought it was gonna be really tough !

and it was luh ):

but not as bad as i thought .

hehh

the p6es [DSA students] trained

wtih us today.

i partnered one of them !

she's called Vanessa, from Marymount Convent .

she's tall :/

WE HAD TO DO SO MANY PUSHUPS &SITUPS

-.-

like 100 each i think !

coach had weird types of pushups &situps .

like the side pushups and crunches .

OHHHH !

Hui Yun joined the team!

ha, i have no idea how she's

gonna handle track &netball !

plus, she's alrdy sec4 this year.

so she only joins till next year before her o's .

so anyways,

renee, thongs, hui yun and i

did the pushups &sit ups together in a row .

when we did the side crunches,

hui yun was like

"fuck, we look like pregnant dolphins "

hehh .

&then there was the stupid

'cross-your-hands-behind-your-back' situps

which were super hard to do .

thongs and renee were like

"ONE, TWO ! PUUUSH !"

even coach was laughing.

MY MUSCLES ARE IN PAIN .

imma go apply Counterpain .

Counterpain is God's gift to netballers(:

2006-10-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

there's training tmr .

i'm ~~scared~~ fucking terrified

2006-10-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

do you see me?

do you feel me like I feel you?

call your number,

I cannot get through.

you don't hear me,

I don't understand .

when I reach out,

I don't find your hand

were they wasted words?

did they mean a thing?

&all that precious time,

but I still feel so in between .

someday I just keep pretending you'll stay,

dreaming of a different ending.

I wanna hold on,

but it hurts so bad .

&I can't keep something that I never had

I keep telling myself,

things can turn around with time.

&if I wait it out,

you could always change your mind .

like a fairytale,

where it works out in the end.

can't I close my eyes,

&have you lying here again.

then I come back down,

then I fade back in.

&then I realize it's just what might have been .

am I a shadow on your wall?

am I anything at all,

anything to you?

am I a secret that you keep?

do you dream of me while you're sleeping after all?

I wanna hold on,

but it hurts so bad .

&I can't keep something that I never had

you don't see me,

you don't feel me like I feel you .

2006-10-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

i feel like dying

yea,

right now .

someone just

kill me

words fall out of my mouth,

&I can't seem to trace what I'm saying,

everybody wants your time .

I'm just dreaming out loud,

I can't have you for mine

&I know it

I just wanna watch you shine .

tripping up on my tongue,

it's all over my face &I'm racing.

gotta get away from you

burning all the way home,

try to put it to bed

but it chases every little thing I do.

when the light falls on your face,

don't let it change you .

when the stars get in your eyes,

don't let them blind you.

you're beautiful just the way you are,

&I love it all .

every line, &every scar.

&I wish that I could make you see,

this is where you ought to be,

come down to me .

spell it out in a song,

bet you never catch on to my weakness .

I'm singing every word for you.

here I'm thinking I’m sly,

then you're catching my eye,

&just maybe you're thinking what I'm thinking too .

when you see it on my face,

don't let it shake you .

I know better than to try &take you with me.

2006-10-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

okay

i havent been in a good mood

for quite a while now.

you all must be thinking

"huh? but she's okay in school

&all that what."

the optimistic me is all an act, people.

now you know .

i might be smiling &laughing on

the outside but

deep inside i'm screaming .

from the start i promised myself

i wouldnt let myself sink too deep.

but, i broke my own promise.

ahh

this week hasn't been good at all .

with you,

i have to dig deep into places

i didn't know i had .

i used to be a girl who would'nt

fall in love .

i'd sort of glance down and

realize i was mired in it .

but with you

i just had to look into your eyes

&feel the world spinning beneath my feet .

i saw in your soul

all the things that were

missing in mine .

i'm not ready for this to end,

not yet.

i was talking to jessica

last night &suddenly her boyfr

called her so she had to go .

the whole night i lay on my bed

covered by my blanket

imagining the murmur of two voices.

that used to be me &you,

i thought.

eyes open, heart broken

i cried myself to sleep again .

2006-10-12T11:44:00.000+08:00

sorry guys!

during the wedding my camera

ran outta battery ):

so i didnt take any pictures with my

own camera !

blaahh

so i have to go hunt down the

people who took pics that day .

these two were from pris.

THANKS DEAREST :D

ZOMG

IM TALKING TO ADEN

ONLINE AND IM ACTUALLY LAUGHING OUT LOUD.

no im serious.

look at this-

AdeN Loves Mendy AdeN Misses Mendy says:
-[When Guys Wanna Kiss You ]-
1. they hold your hand and always play
with it.
2. they stare into your eyes for a long
time.
3. they always tell you how much they
love you
and that they will never let you go.
4. they just grab your hand because they
want to
hold it.
5. they play with your hair

AdeN Loves Mendy AdeN Misses Mendy says:
-[When Girls Wanna Kiss You ]-
1. they stare into your eyes bitting their
lip.
2. they always wrap their arms around
you.
3. they play with their hands, shirts, pants,
etc.
just waiting for you to make the move.
4. they text you sayin i wanna c u
tomorrow..

AdeN Loves Mendy AdeN Misses Mendy says:
oh my god im doing the girls one

audd; somewhere along in the bitterness says:
you act like a girl

audd; somewhere along in the bitterness says:
hahah

AdeN Loves Mendy AdeN Misses Mendy says:
i am one

AdeN Loves Mendy AdeN Misses Mendy says:
lol

AdeN Loves Mendy AdeN Misses Mendy says:
im a pretty girl lol, i want nice radiant skin

audd; somewhere along in the bitterness says:
haha

audd; somewhere along in the bitterness says:
use SKII whitening sauce

HAHAHAHA

I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING

ADEN HAS A NEW GIRLFR

AND HE WANTS TO KISS HER

BUT HE DOESNT DARE.

AND ZOMG.

THAT WAS SUPER FUNNY!

2006-10-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

i dont usually do these typa quizzes,

but since MY NAME was right on top of Shakila's

list of people whom she wanted to do the quiz,

im HONOURED.

thus, i'm doing it.

#1 Single, taken or crushing? taken! :D

#2 Are you happy with your life? hmm, not really

#3 When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?

depends really

#4 Have you ever had your heart broken? yea

#5 Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?

no, no &no

#6 Would you ever take someone back if he/she cheated on you?

it really depends on who

#7 Have you talked about marriage with another before? -blush!

#8 Do you want children?

yes, but the thought of SOMEONE coming out from my ERHEM is kinda disturbing -OUCHH!

#9 How many? twins !

#10 Would you consider adoption?

yes, read question 8

#11 If somebody likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feeling?

i suck at this

#12 Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?

the start is always the best, then the crap starts kicking in. STOCK UP ON TISSUES, GIRLS!

#13 Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did before?

private &confidential

#14 Do you believe in first love? ehh, i guess so

#15 Do you believe that you can change someone?

yes, if you care enough to try

#16 Are you romantic? no, not really

#17 If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?

ROME !

#18 Do you easily give in in fighting?

depends who i'm fighting with

#19 Have you wished that you could have someone but messed it up? yes

#20 Do you have feelings for someone right now?

read question one

#21 Have you ever broken a heart? yeeeeea

#22 If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl whom you are deepy in love with, what will you do?

OH MY GOD. i'd just die

#23 Are you missing s0meone now? yes, ALOT

Now, you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.

Write down their names in the list below.

Tag them in their blog to let them know.

i'm so confused

now my heart's bruised

was i ever loved by you?

2006-10-09T16:39:00.000+08:00

I never knew that everything was falling through,

that everyone I knew was waiting on a queue,

to turn &run when all I needed was the truth .

but that's how it's got to be,

it's coming down to nothing more than apathy.

I'd rather run the other way,

than stay and see the smoke

&who's still standing when it clears.

let's rearrange.

I wish you were a stranger I could disengage,

just say that we agree &then never change.

soften a bit until we all just get along,

but that's disregard.

find another friend &you discard,

as you lose the argument in a cable car,

hanging above as the canyon comes between.

&suddenly I become a part of your past,

I'm becoming the part that won't last.

I'm losing you and its effortless,

without a sound we lose sight of the ground .

in the throw around,

never thought that you wanted to bring it down.

I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves.

everyone knows I'm in over my head.

with eight seconds left in overtime, she's on your mind.
&everyone knows she's on your mind .

2006-10-05T15:44:00.000+08:00

one month and a day

lets just hope this lasts .

2006-10-04T16:08:00.000+08:00

pardon the lian-ness. its supposed to be lian-ish :D

2006-10-01T12:22:00.000+08:00

Your Icecream Flavour is...
Choc-Chip Cookie Dough!

You are fancy shmancy! You have all the bells and whistles and you attract the most gluttonous of ice-cream shop patrons. You are fattening and intensely rich. That being said, you are very tasty and have a huge fanbase! good for you!

What is your Icecream Flavour?
Find out at Go Quiz

ONE MORE WEEK !

you can do it audreeeeeey !

i know my blog has

been the most boring website

on planet earth.

why?

because all i do everyday

is mug mug mug.

i swear my best friends

are books and pens and papers.

[sorry nat&ambs]

so just now,

i was talking to him

and you complained that

my blog's boring !

ahh fine fine .

and you said that

i didn't write about you .

hahaha

well i'm writing about you

now, does it make

my blog more interesting?

i miss you the

most-estestestestestestestestest

fullstop !

oh yea,

sorry i woke you

up today babe !

AFTER talking to him,

my mom came into my room

and gave me

the oh-so-dreaded

SEX TALK .

yes you would think

i had that when i was p4,

but my mom wanted to

"further educate" me.

oh,

i'm so fortunate to have

a mom who cares so much

about her one and only daughter .

thanks mom, really.

anyways,

GOOD LUCK FOR THE EXAMS EVERYONE :D

2006-09-30T17:24:00.000+08:00

SMEXY DADDY !

abby and i have decided

that youre our pa

youre like our father,

really !

i've missed you loads

since you went to

CHINAAAAAA.

but now you're backk !

i love you

even though you forgot

my BIRTHDAY !

OH OH OH

i cut my fringe !

so now,

everyone can finally

get to see my left eye

hurhur .

i'll post pics next week alrights !

ya'll are gonna freak .

2006-09-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

how come everyone

says that i'm depressed !

ATTENTION:

i'm not depressed !

i'm just oober stressed .

gahh

my eyebags are so disgusting

i swear .

i think my right eyebag is

bigger than my left one .

no joke !

Cause tomorrow is just a little step away

I'll be there to help you start believe in love again

Tell me that you're waiting,

Waiting for that happiness .

2006-09-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

JONATHAN DIDNT WIN ):

AAAAAAAH !

i'm so sad please

okay i should just

shut up about SI right now

before i say something

nasty about Hady .

so anyways,

Monday was sad

and not sad .

hahah

i dont make sense now .

I've never felt the need to lose control

Always held on back &played it slow

But not this time

Baby, don't be gentle

I can handle anything .

2006-09-24T11:46:00.000+08:00

here's a few quizzes for you girls

: D

WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR LOVE AURA?

1. To you, a good kiss is :

A. a peck on the cheek

B. lip to lip with a tight pucker

C. lip to lip with a little tongue play

D. nice &wet with lots of tongue

2. Your idea of a hot date is :

A. dinner with your parents

B. a stroll &a stop for a cup of coffee

C. a movie with an easy-to-follow plot for

plenty of makeout action

D. getting a motel room

3. Your favourite pickup line is :

A. What're you looking at?

B. Hi. What's your name?

C. You're cute. What are you doing for the rest of your life?

D. Shut up, &kiss me

4. You're eating with a guy &he spills ketchup on

his shirt. You :

A. Say nothing

B. Wipe it off with your napkin

C. Lick it off

D. Rip his shirt off

5. You'll dump a guy if :

A. He doesn't say 'Please' & 'Thank You'

B. He swears too much

C. He's got butt zits

D. He wont do 'everything'

ANSWER KEY :

If you picked mostly A's, your sexual aura is WHITE.

Face it, you're a prude.

If you picked mostly B's, your aura is YELLOW.

You're too cautious. Time to take a few chances.

If you picked mostly C's, your aura is BLUE.

You're sensuous &sexy but don't carry it

too far - most of the time. Be careful.

If you picked mostly D's, your aura is RED.

You're a total slut ! You might wanna slow down

a bit. But hey, maybe it works for you.

____________________________________________

DOES HE REALLY LIKE YOU?

1. Someone is spreading nasty rumors about

you at a party. You leave. Your special guy :

A. Doesn't move

B. Adds to the rumors

C. Follows you out to see if you're okay

2. You spot him sitting with a bunch of friends. He :

A. Ignores you

B. Gives you a half-hearted nod

C. smiles at you &waves

3. A school dance is coming up. He :

A. Asks another girl to be his date

B. Doesn't ask you but figures he'll

see you there

C. Asks you to go with him

4. At the dance, a jerk tries to embarrass you. Your date :

A. Leaves you in disgrace

B. Pretends it never happened

C. Stand by you and takes you out for supper later

5. While making out, you accidentally

bite his lip. He :

A. Never wants to talk to you again

B. Tells everyone what a crazy bitch you are

C. Runs after you, tries to stop you from

leaving and calls you, begging

to see you again

ANSWER KEY :

If you answered C to these questions, it's pretty damn

obvious he really likes you !

_____________________________________________

oh, in case you're wondering.

you can't find these quizzes on any

other web site (:

please, if you wanna use it on

your blog.

credit me

2006-09-20T16:43:00.000+08:00

PICTURES !

from like last week.

hahah

long overdue

i know.

im sorry !

credits to STEF!

i took most of the pics

from steffieweffie.

thank you dearest <3

oh babe, i love you TONS

2006-09-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

the sky is falling

&it's early in the morning

but it's okay somehow

I spilled my coffee

&it went all over your clothes

I gotta wear mine now

&I'm always, always, always late

&my hair's a mess even when it's straight

but so what

I'm better off every day

when I'm standing in the pouring rain

I don't mind

I think of you and everything's alright

I used to think I had it good

but now I know that I misunderstood

you would say,

I'm better off in every way

my friends keep callin'

they say, they say Im stallin'

&they wanna meet you now

I tell them hell no,

I say we're tryin' to lay low

don't wanna lose what I've found

things are finally, finally lookin' up

both my feet are on the ground

even though im stuck

so what,

I'm better off everyday

when i'm standing in the pouring rain,

I dont mind,

I think of you and everythings alright

I used to think I had it good

but now I know that I misunderstood

you would say, I'm better off in every way

I'm better off in every way

I'm better off today

the sky has fallen

&it's early in the morning

but it's okay .

2006-09-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD !

so yea,

i havent been

posting for like

one whole week.

IM BACK FROM THE

AKLTG CAMP !

it wasnt so bad luh.

it was fun(:

and i made

new friends !

oh wells

i promised ya'll

pictures righto?

so here they are,

PART II

this is how I look
at 8 am in the morning
with a board over me

2006-09-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

WHO PUT ME IN CHARGE

OF THE LIT PLAY PROPS

THING ?

WHO?

rahh

i could hardly give

a shit about it luh.

BUT

being the responsible

person i am

-ahem,

i managed to plan

all the stuff properly !

yay.

with the help of

AMBS, NAT AND KIM !

thank you three.

you people were

lifesavers today !

anyways,

went to ambs place

at like EIGHT

in the morning !

cause my mom

dropped me off

before going to work .

nat went even

EARLIER !

hahah

poor ambs.

she had to wake

up early specially

for us (:

thank you indian lover<3

so we watched

TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU !

super sweeeeet :D

hahah.

then kim came,

started to work on

THE HUTT(:

i think its quite hokay luh.

halfway through,

I SAW DARYL EE WALK PAST !

hahaha.

he's so tall

-.-

nevermind,

i'll be as tall !

after lunch,

we did the

PADDY FIELD !

had to collect

leaves, branches

and

all that shit.

the paddy field looks

like a frickin jungle.

hahaha

after everything,

we played with ambra's

garden hose !

got super wett(:

hee :D

here are the pics!

some pictures were

from yesterday when

i was at Nat's place.

let your eyes have

their fill :D

AMBRA'S BUM. dont ask!

ahh
shucks !
i have to go nowww.
D:
i’ll upload the rest of the pics next time !
OH YEA
im going to be away at
THE ADAM KHOO CAMP
from tmr till Sunday !
Its like from 8
in the morning
to 11 at night.
TORTURE !
so you guys wont hear
from me till next week.
that’s IF I survive
the camp !
LOVE YOU GUYS<3

Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care?
Maybe I could meet you there

2006-09-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

i waited for your calls

but

as usual

you never did call.

i'm just wasting my time.

abby !

my dearest smexyfats

i know i shouldnt be

happy about IT

when youre

still upset and everything.

i love you hokay !

SMEXY &I LOVE YOU MANY.

cheer up babe ! :D

2006-09-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

fuck

maybe they were right.

you dont give a shit

about me.

your fucking ____

is more important.

and last night,

i spent the whole night

talking to Daryl Ee

instead of you.

(THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING

ME DARYL)

heck.

i've decided not

to care anymore.

it takes up too much

energy to care.

&you promised me that

you'd hold me close

and never let me go

2006-08-31T18:22:00.000+08:00

JONATHAN LEONG IS SEXY

i always knew he was.

but he's

SO MUCH SEXIER LIVE!

-faints!

i went for

Singapore Idol last night!

got tickets from

Mrs Alex.

if ya'll want tickets,

go badger her(:

hahah.

ANYWAYS,

i had to rush like

MAD

after training just

to get to

Caldecott Hill on time.

IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!

I SAW JON AND I WENT

-WHOOOOOOSH

he is SUPER sexy.

FULLSTOP.

PERIOD.

DONT ARGUE WITH ME.

i touched his hand THREE TIMES.

AAAAAAAH!

HE HAS NICE

SMOOTH HANDS.

oh oh oh!

AND FOR ALL THOSE

PAUL TWOHILL FANS

OUT THERE!

after the show,

he came to my side

of the stage and

shook my hand,

then he squatted in front

of me and mumbled

something.

couldnt hear what he was saying.

so i just said

"take care!"

hahaha.

I KNOW ALL YOU

PAUL TWOHILL

FANS ARE JEALOUS!

rahh.

I GOT A HUGE HUGE

HUGE

POSTER OF JONATHAN LEONG!

some dude gave it

to me yesterday!

THANK YOU WHOEVER

YOU ARE!

I LOVE YOU! <3

ohh,

today i went back

to HGS for a visit!

AHH!

SAW HAWA!

she's like a stick now.

SUPER SKINNY!

krystal,

i am not skinny.

HAWA

IS SKINNY.

haha.

it was so so so

good to see everyone!

after that i went out

with tessa!

watched

THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA

super nice!

ya'll should watch it.

met tessa's friend,

jasmine.

she's a tk netballer!

she said she knows

Evil, Thongs, Steph and Belly.

oh wells,

i think this is my longest ever post.

2006-08-25T17:32:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU

to everyone in school

who made these few

TERRIBLE

days better for me!

yesterday and today were

HORRIBLY SAD.

i dont know why.

i just felt like crying.

i think it was

after what happened

between my mom

and i.

oh wells,

at least you guys

managed to cheer me up.

as ALWAYS(:

so anyways!

i've changed my blogskin

FOR THE THIRD TIME

in one week!

hahaha.

IM SO FICKLE MINDED.

-slaps myself-

haha

as ambs would've put it

"YOU STUPID FOOL"

today,

went for lunch with

jenn, clare and amb

at LJS.

we got super bored there

so we went to macs after

eating.

MET RACHAEL LYE!

and her friend, LUKE.

so we all went

to macs together.

as usual,

ambra got high.

like SKY HIGH.

you would've thought

she was on HEROINE or

whatever.

hahahh.

she made

SO SO SO MUCH NOISE.

audrey ho and belly were there!

so audrey asked me

to ask ambs to shut up

cause she was

"embarrasing"

hahah.

everyone who

goes to macs often would

know by now,

how psychotic ambra

can get.

GAHH

I CANT WAIT FOR TMR!(:

sorry nat!

i wont be there at

the HDB hub

to watch you perform):

but good luck babe!

OH YEA,

IF ANYONE OF YOU SEE

AMBRA SELLING BADGES TMR,

RUN IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION.

2006-08-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY(:

i just had math tuition!

before that i went

SHOPPING!

like, FINALLY!

retail therapy(:

heavenly i tell you.

went to wisma first

to look for a dress.

walked into

DANIEL YAM

hoping to look

for a simple dress.

i tried like 4 dresses?

here are the

PICTURES!(:

i look super fat in this :/

i kinda liked this one(:

the green version of the above

plain ol' white :D

OH!
there was this
other pink polka-
dotted dress
which i tried at
another shop.
ive forgotten the name
of that shop.
I LOVED THAT ONE!(:
but the smallest size
was too big for me):
wells,
the HUNT
for the perfect dress
shall continue next week!

i'm heading into a crisis chasing the years of my life

2006-08-18T20:28:00.000+08:00

I JUST CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!
(:
you like?
HAHA.
im at nat's place.
ambs left like an hour ago.
SHE WAS PARANOID
ABOUT GOING BACK TO TP HERSELF.
CAUSE OF THE
CHEE KO PEKS,
STALKERS
AND OTHER SCARY PEOPLE.
:/
this is the msg she sent me
after she got on the bus.
HEY HO
LOOK AT THE OBITUARIES
ON MONDAY!
MY NAME WILL BE THERE!
hahaha.
YOU WONT DIE.
IM YOUR PROTECTOR(:
haha
oh wells,
nat is a CHEE KO PEK(:
oooooooh
she's stroking my leg
-gasp!-
hurhur
NAT LIKES MY LEGS(:
ohh did i tell ya'll
i passed math and chinese.
FINALLYYYY!
wadeva audrey
i noe u passed and i did BUT
i still failed maths.
u then chee ko pek
SQUEEZING MY CHEEK
and saying OHHH.
I LIKE YOU CHEEK.
ohhh.
-natalie((:
HURRHURR
SORRY YA'LL
THAT WAS THE
OH-SO-CRAZY
NATALIE YONG TAU FOO
but its true luh!
SHE LIKES MY LEGS(:
and i like her cheeks!<3
haha
TMR IM GONNA BE DOING
FLAGDAY!
you better come to me
and buy the sticker thanngs.
rawrrr.
i have to be in school
by like SEVEN IN THE MORNING
):
i alrdy have
EYEBAGS!
poooooop.

dont say you love me
you dont even know me

2006-08-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

NAT DAO-ED ME TODAY

why?

WHY.

pfft

anyways,

AMBRA LIEW SAN!

GET JON'S AUTOGRAPH PLEASE?

thanks!

hahaa.

today after school,

i was supposed to go out with ben.

and ambs had nothing to do

so she followed us.

met RACHAEL LYE

AND MEISHI

AND KIM!

i swear,

rachael,

CARRY ON LIKE THAT,

YOU ARE GONNA FAIL PSLE.

study HARD!

come to ij,

so that i can bully you(:

TODAY'S SCIENCE CA WAS SHITTYY

i studied quite hard for it please!

but all the stuff i studied didnt come out,

GAHH.

i just hope i get b3 for everything!

then i can get a new phone!(:

hahaha,

did i mention.

ambs and i felt

CHEE KO PEK-ISH

today!

hahah

seriously.

blaah.

i dont know if im happy

that the CAs are over.

cause end-of-years are coming

in one month.

oh yea, i have a quiz for ya'll (:

QUIZ: ARE YOU A DRAMA QUEEN?

do all your friends call you YOUR ROYAL HISSY FIT behind your back?

take this quiz & find out if youre easy going or a touch too touchy.

YOU BREAK A NAIL ON THE WAY TO SCHOOL, YOU:
(a) dont notice
(b) stop at a nail salon to fix it, homeroom can wait.
(c)sob quietly
(d) scream bloody murder
2. YOUR BEST FRIEND GOES TO A PARTY WITHOUT YOU,
YOU:
(a) hope she has a good time
(b) resolve to do the same to her next time
(c) sob quietly
(d) threaten to slit your nails with a nail file
3. YOUR SISTER ATE THE LAST OREO (& theyre your favourite), YOU:
(a) shrug & figure you'll have some another time
(b) tell on her to your mom
(c) sob quietly
(d) take her favorite barbie hostage till someone meets your oreo demands
4. YOU GOT AN 'F' ON AN EXAM CAUSE' YOU WERE PARTYING INSTEAD OF STUDYING, YOU:
(a) vow to do better next time
(b) ask to do a makeup exam
(c) sob quietly
(d) threaten to sue the school for discrimination against the handicapped-people with overactive social lives {OHMYGOD, I WOULD SO DO THIS}
5. YOU GO TO A PARTY & ANOTHER GIRL IS WEARING THE SAME DRESS AS YOU, YOU:
(a) laugh it off
(b) go home & change
(c) sob quietly
(d) push her into the pool
6. YOUR BOYFRIEND SAYS HE DOESNT LIKE THE SWEATER YOURE WEARING, YOU:
(a) tell him you like it & thats all that matters
(b)take it off immediately
(c) sob quietly
(d) cut it into tiny pieces & mail it to him covered in fake blood
IF YOU CIRCLED MAINLY 'A's, YOURE A DRAMA PEASANT ALSO KNOWN AS A COOL CUSTOMER. NOTHING BOTHERS YOU TOO MUCH CAUSE' YOUVE GOT YOUR PRIORITIES STRAIGHT. SURE, YOUR FRIENDS SECRETLY CALL YOU AN ICE QUEEN BEHIND YOUR BACK, BUT EVEN THAT DOESNT RILE YOU.
IF YOU CIRCLED MOSTLY 'B's, YOURE A PROBLEM SOLVER. WHEN SOMETHING GOES WRONG, YOU TRY TO FIX IT- WHETHER ITS WORTH THE TROUBLE OR NOT.
IF YOU CIRCLED MAINLY 'C's, YOURE A SILENT SOBBER YOU MAY NOT BE A DRAMA QUEEN, BUT YOUVE GOT BIGGER PROBLEMS. CONSIDER ANTI-DEPRESSANTS OR THERAPY.
IF YOU CIRCLED MOSTLY 'D's, START THE HISSY FIT NOW CAUSE' YOURE A FULL BLOWN DRAMA QUEEN. CONGRATULATIONS, YOUR HIGHNESS.
maybe its too late
to save a young girls heart
that's long stopped beating

2006-08-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

quoting snow patrol

"those three words

are said too much,

than not at all"

everytime you say those three words,

my heart skips a beat.

then i stop to think,

and i wonder if you

actually mean it.

i so badly wanna say i love you too.

if i lay here,
if i just lay here.
would you lie with me,
& just forget the world?

2006-08-12T09:29:00.000+08:00

I'M SLEEPY

you must be wondering

WHY THE HELL AM I UP SO EARLY

wells,

my mom told my maid to wake me up at nine

so yea

here i am.

anyways,

yesterday we had our CHEENA exam

ambs, TOTALLY SCREWED UP

tsktsk

you'll do better next round(:

after school,

we went to LJS(:

got high

irritated the girls at the next table

and ambs and i

started that

SMILE AT A STRANGER!(:

thingy.

it was wicked.

hahah

OHH!

nat and ambs kept

saying SHE likes me.

I SWEAR,

she doesnt!

seriously!

then ambra,

mentioned that im a boy magnet.

like NO?

hahah

but thanks,

i am flattered!(:

after that,

nat said i was a

CHICK MAGNET.

HAHA

that one is kinda true.

but whatever.

so yea,

after lunch we went over to amb's place.

HER FUCKING BUS PASSES THE

AUSTRALIAN INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL

envy!

we were on the bus,

A CUTE CUTE GUY CAME UP THE BUS

-faints-

hahaha

nat said he looked at me, or ambs

either one.

but, i think it must've been ambs.

I HATE YOU AMBRA, STUPID ANG MOH

hahaha(:

then ambs

decided to let the two

TRANSPORT IDIOTS

lead the way to her house.

so we ended up at the playground!

hahaha

then in the end we found her house(:

SO,

WE WERE SUPPOSED TO WATCH FIREWORKS

but amb's mom

saw her lit paper.

(psst, she flunked it)

so, her mom didnt allow her to go.

BLAHH

no indian lover! ):

BUT,

nat and i still went.

it was fucking nice!

FIREWORKS, I LOVE!<3

when you told me that

you loved me,

were those just words?

2006-08-10T18:56:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!

FIONA HAN, P6

FROM KCPPS

ANY FREE AH BENGS OUT THERE?

HELP ME BEAT HER UP(:

I LOVE YOU!

HAHAHA

YOU THINK THAT YOURE SO PRETTYYYY RIGHT(:

HOKAY ANYWAYS

YOU CAN GO FUCK HERE, THERE

WHEREVER.

BUT PLEASE,

DO NOT COME FUCK WITH ME.

YOU ARE SO SCREWED :D

HAHA.

WATCH OUT, GIRL.

2006-08-10T13:27:00.000+08:00

I AM BOREDD

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: euu ish ah liAnx arhx?

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: of course lahhx, den wad!

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: we go hang outs at fareast 2moro lahZxx

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: ohkayx lorghXz

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: yahhx. ehXX. moii ish wants 2 tell euu somethingxx

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: say LORGHHX

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: moiix ix of itsx berii longg liiaoxx.

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: sayx lahx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: moii...

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: moiii..

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: moii..wants

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: moii..wants..

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: choo dyee mii hair pinkx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: lyke datt verii bengz

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: ohhx, moii go 2 jean yip 2 dyee

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: moii go 2 reds but nows no $$

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: yarpz i oso no more $$

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: moii ix onli habb $100 left for dis monthx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: orghx, you wan somemore $$?

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: i can gibbb euu

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: oh reaalii? i wanxx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: yeshxx, no problems wanxx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: how muchiex euu needx?

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: hmmmx abouts $500?

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: aiyaxx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: too badx ehhZ

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: i gotchs no change, juz keep de $1000 lorhxx

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: whoaaxxZ realliix?

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: euu no bluff miix hor?

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: yeshx yeshx, anything for my smexy cutetarded

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: ohkiiex

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: hmmxx, $1000 enuff onotx?

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: yahhx, should be lahxx

*Daryl; im your smexy, cutetarded! says: ohkieexx. so wad ish euu doings?

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: nothingx lorhzz

audd; smexy & cutetarded! says: ehhxZ can we stopx dis typingx?

AH LIANS/AH BENGS!

WE DONT LIKE YOU.

2006-08-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

NEWS FLASH!

my mom confiscated my phone!

blahh

dont ask me why

cause i dont know either

-.-

anyways!

HAPPY NATIONAL DAYY PEOPLE!(:

today (or actually yesterday cause'

its like 12.30 on the 9th of august)

after mass,

ambs, nat, stef, amanda Y and i

went to jay8.

watched CLICK

although i wanted to watch

TOKYO DRIFT

and ambra wanted to watch

NACHO LIBRE

hahah

met clarissa and anne at jay8!

hahah

I FINALLY KNOW WHO ANNE IS

she added me on friendster long long ago

so anyways,

the show was hilarious.

but there were a few sad parts.

all of us cried.

except amanda.

who totally has no heart.

after that,

we went back to tp to have lunch,

headed to the library to do some

SERIOUS STUDYING

hahah

had cheena tuition.

i am now talking to,

BENEDICT SEAHH!(:

2006-08-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA

HISTORY CA IS TMR!

AND IM HIGH

GODKNOWSWHY

-.-

ANYWAYS

i had math tuition this morning.

and now,

im taking a BREAK

from mugging

hahah

i know

ya'll are all like

"AUDREY, MUGGING? WHATEVER MAN!"

hhaha

but seriously

i vow to do well this time!

oh yea

last night

i was talking to CX on the phone

from 10 plus to 2

he tried to play truth or dare

with me ON THE PHONE

LIKE HELLOOO?

-.-

hahah

and he made up stupid rules

to excuse himself from doing

what i dared him.

wohkays,

i better go mug somemore!

2006-08-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD(:

sorry i havent been posting!

haha

i've been really lazy

yeaa

my granny's in hospital!

im really worried for her

hokay

so today

went for the adam khoo thingy

it was a preview

kinda fun i guess

but im hesitant

about going for the camp

blah.

anyways,

my mom signed me up for it.

its called

"I AM GIFTED, SO ARE YOU!"

hahaha

hokay

im talking on the phone now

soo

yea

BYEEEE(:

2006-07-16T12:23:00.000+08:00

today is such a boring day

was actually supposed to go out with nat

but now,

aiyer

long story

ahaha

YESTERDAY

i went to harbour front with mommy

SAW RACHEL WONG!

not the one from ij

the rachel from hgs last time.

YOU KNOW?

the TALL TALL BASKETBALLER.

shes so pretty now!

I LOVE HER HAIR

i was like looking at this nike bag

then i looked up

and saw her

i kept staring at her

then her dad stared at me

then i was like

'OHMYGOD RACHEL!'

hahahah

then she looked at me

'AUDREY!'

hahaha

SHES IN DUNMAN HIGH NOW

SMART ASS

always has been(:

hahaha

felt damn good seeing her

all the memories of us

in primary school came flooding back

TEASING JILYN WAS THE BEST

i feel mean just thinking of it.

bought a puma handbag

now thinking of it

i shouldve bought the nike one

no one ever saw me like you do

all the things that I could add up to

I never knew

just what a smile was worth

but your eyes say everything

without a single word

cause there's somethin'

in the way you look at me

it's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece

you make me believe

that there's nothing in this world

i can't be

i never know what you see

but there's somethin'

in the way you look at me

if I could freeze a moment in my mind

it'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine

i'd like to stop the clock

make time stand still

cause' baby

this is just the way

I always wanna feel

i don't know how or why

I feel different in your eyes

all I know is it happens every time

2006-07-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

You Are a Coy Flirt!

You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts inWhile you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game onA little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they craveAnd in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile

HAHAHA(:

You Should Get A Butterfly Tattoo

Girly and funkyFor you, tattoos are a thing of beauty - not toughness

hmmm. i actually wanted a star tattoo.

haha, but a butterfly'd be nice.

You are a New Age Girl!

You're bright, opinionated, and dedicated to changing the world.Even if it's one hybrid car at a time, you do you part to make things better.In fact, you may be so busy with your causes that you have little time for love.Take an extra yoga class or two, and you just might meet New Age Guy!

oh, really?

You Are a Party Girl!

You give Paris Hilton and Tara Reid a run for their money(Who knows? You've probably even run into them at a club or two)While you do have fun - relax a little every so oftenAll those drinks do nothing for your looks - or your bank account

this was meant to be(:

You Are a Halter Bikini

You're an athletic girl with a hot athletic bod to match.And you've got a great tan, probably from all those beach volleyball games!

whoa.

You Should Wear a Yellow Bikini

Like the sun, you radiate warmth and brighten up everyone's day.And while a yellow bikini is a bit strange, you have the perky personality to wear one!

WHY NOT ORANGE?!

You are Wedge Sandals

Bohemian and sexyYou're a free spirit - both in life and in fashionYou have a style all your own, and it turns heads!

sweet(:

hahaha(:

jess asked me to try out these thingys.

theyre cool.

but a little weird.

anyways,

GO CHECK THEM OUT(:

2006-07-11T15:57:00.000+08:00

hey ya'll

i'm like missing training ONCE AGAIN.

ahhh.

its not that i WANT to.

my mom asked me not to go.

cause' i was coughing like a dying old person.

i still am.

but not that bad now.

my lungs kinda hurt when i cough.

so yea.

please worsen my mood?

i was supposed to go out tmr.

AND THEN BAM!

my dad just had to pick tmr to have freakin lunch with me.

AH.

okay anyways,

I FEEL SO GUILTY.

i keep telliong joce i'll be going for trng but i DONT.

SLAP ME,

HARD.

2006-07-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

its like the second day of e-learning.

and everyone's hating it.

hahaha.

school's not that bad after all!(:

there's junior trng at kellock today.

but i cant go, in case its like tough trng and i die again.

i havent gone for trng since the last trng when i died.

sorry jocelyn dear!

i'll go for trng next week, I SWEAR.

if I had to,

I would put myself right beside you

so let me ask

would you like that?

would you like that?
and I don't mind

if you say this love is the last time

so now I'll ask

do you like that?

do you like that?
no
something's getting in the way

something's just about to break

i will try to find my place in the diary of Jane

so tell me how it should be
try to find out what makes you tick

as I lie down

sore and sick

do you like that?

do you like that?
there's a fine line between love and hate

and I don't mind

just let me say

that I like that

I like that
something's getting in the way

something's just about to break

i will try to find my place in the diary of Jane

as I burn another page

as I look the other way

i still try to find my place in the diary of Jane

so tell me how it should be
desperate, I will crawl

waiting for so long

no love,

there is no love

die for anyone

what have I become?
something's getting in the way

something's just about to break

I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane

as I burn another page

as I look the other way

I still try to find my place

In the diary of Jane

2006-07-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

MY COMPUTER HATES ME.

IT IS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS MY COMPUTER DETESTS ME.

FIRSTLY, THIS CABLE THINGY THINGY CAME OUT, I SPENT LIKE 300 DECADES TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE THE HELL IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PLUGGED IN.

THEN, NOW.

MY FUCKING SPEAKERS DONT WORK.

BLOODY BITCHES!

FUCK YOU!

GO TO HELL!

I'VE LIKE CHECKED ALL THE WIRES AND WHATEVER,

THEYRE ALL THERE.

SO TELL ME WHY THEY DONT WORK HUHH.

MY COMPUTER IS PLAIN EVIL.

2006-07-05T16:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO WORLD!(:
i'm finally back! hahahah. i havent been updating cause' my stupid comp crashed on me during the HOLIDAYS. like wtf. i had no comp to use luh! POO. anyways, my holiday was so-so. nothing fantastic. i fell sick last week, missed trng on tuesday, thought i had almost recovered, so i went for trng on thursday. smart move, i nearly died.
and today i have trng but im missing it, doctor said im on meds, so i cant train till next week. poor them, suffering under the freaking hot sun right now): all my documents are GONE! that means byebye to my music and pictures -sobsob!- send me songs online okay! THANKS(:
oh yea, i've got pics from my holiday in Bandung, but i cant find my USB cable.
when i upload them i'll show ya'll(:

2006-05-31T11:09:00.000+08:00

RAWR!
my muscles are aching! POO. had training on monday for the first time in WEEEEKS! and it was pretty tough i guess. or was it just jaime, joce and i? our whole bodies are aching! and we still have training today -.- i hope it'll be better. even my TUMMY muscles are aching, like what the hell?
anyways, we had parent-teacher meet yesterday. had to go help out. DAMN! it was boooooring. my partner was clarissa, a sec2 girl! SHES FIRGGIN' SMART! blah. stayed in school from 7.50 to about 3. we were almost useless, sitting in the classroom! -.- then today CLARE dear called me at 9?! i was still sleeping luh. then when i called her back at 10 plus, SHE SAID SARAH WANTED TO CONFERENCE WITH US! AAAAH! HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SLEEPING? HOW?
screw me!

Do you still remember back when days were longer

dreams were bigger then

the weight of the world had not yet landed on the shoulders of a man

i thought that time stood still

sheltered, protected

they never told me this would end

or that the leaves would fall again

so take me back, back to better days

cause this time between is wasting me away

take me back, when we were not afraid

cause' this time between is wasting me away

there was a day when this world went to war and didn't bat an eye

real life in the movies felt the same to me

and I never questioned why

I know the difference now, between fact and fiction

but I've come to find that I've grown bitter in just 24 short years

so take me back, back to better days

cause' this time between is wasting me away

so take me back, when we were not afraid

cause' this time between is wasting me away

wasting me away, waste away

so now we're running, we're running blind into the light

and we fall behind

we're running and wasting away with time

just take me back, yeah take me back

when we were not afraid

2006-05-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

IM ADDICTED TO MARKS & SPENCER SOUR CHERRIES!
i want moremoremore!(: today we had CHINESE ENRICHMENT THE WHOLE DAY-.- i thought it was like gonna be textbook, and workbook kinda thing. but it wasnt, this china lady came in and taught us how to paint chinese masks thingys. you know the opera type? before that she was talking about something and i didnt understand so i slept for an hour, plus nat went for a dance meeting. i woke up when she came back to class, GUESS WHAT LUH. she and the dancers were actually done, but they stayed upstairs in the AIRCONDITIONED dance studio for like half an hour more, having fun -.- poo. then after the painting thing, she taught us to do a STRING THINGY. i dont know whats its called. sharon did mine for me, its a dragonfly(:
and the last part, we learned how to wrap the rice dumpling! that thign called BA CHANG? i think. mine was disastrous. the rice kept falling out. and when i managed to tie it properly, clare came over to our class with this orange spray paint bottle. and she sprayed it on my HANDS, and it dripped on to my SHOE! ahhh! THERES NOW A BIG FAT ORANGE SPLOTCH ON MY SHOE! ): AND STAINS ON MY BLOUSE AND PINAFORE! pfffft. its un-removable. im so dead. gahh.
i was supposed to go to the library with nicky but in the end i didnt, cause' of my uniform-.- AND CAUSE' OF CLARE! rawr. but nevermind!(: i just realised my nails are stained orange too! i better go try using nail polish remover.
TMR'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! YAYY. plus, training's starting soon(:
DOUBLE yayy(:

2006-05-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

TODAYS NETBALL CARNIVAL WAS GREAT!(:
i umpired three games in total. ER HEM ABBY! ER HEM! haha! okay anyways, we took turns. and guess what! AUDREY HO WAS IN MY GROUP, AGAIN!(: YAY! HAHAH. small audrey and MEDIUM audrey -.- oh yea, then this teacher's son was there too. hes like SEVEN YEARS OLD! SO CUTE LUH!(: he officially confirmed that LITTLE KIDS LIKE ME! which means my ambition on becoming a child psychologist might just come true!(: yayness mann, that little boyboy is called TYMON. nice name right(: as you know, i like little kids so i was like talking to him and yea, laughing when he was laughing although i didnt really understand him. so after i went to macs with jocelyn and came back to umpire the second game, evil told me he was looking for me!
HAHA, SEE! HE LIKES ME! IM SO NICE(: oh, and he said that me and rachel wong looked alike, and his mom was saying that we were TWINS. so we acted like twins, hahah. i think he was confused, hahah. HE CALLED ME RACHEL AT FIRST. i dont think we look alike, at all!
3/10 won the netball competition, 3/2 won the banner competition and 3/8 won cheerleading! but 3/2 won overall(: and nat told me that our class didnt win today for anything, big surprise -.- BUT we did win 1/8,1/4 and 1/5 for the captains ball thingy! YAYY! and 1/3 won overall! GOOD JOB!(:
did i mention, SHONA was emcee.
IT WAS SUPER DUPER WHOOPER FUNNY!

from underneath the trees, we watch the sky

confusing stars for satellites

i never dreamed that you'd be mine

but here we are, we're here tonight

singing, Amen, I'm alive

if everyone cared and nobody cried

if everyone loved and nobody lied

if everyone shared and swallowed their pride

we'd see the day when nobody died

and I'm singing, Amen I, I'm alive

Amen I, I'm alive

and in the air the fireflies

our only light in paradise

we'll show the world they were wrong

and teach them all to sing along

singing, Amen, I'm alive

and as we lie beneath the stars

we realize how small we are

if they could love like you and me

imagine what the world could be

if everyone cared and nobody cried

if everyone loved and nobody lied

if everyone shared and swallowed their pride

we'd see the day when nobody died

we'd see the day, we'd see the day when nobody died

we'd see the day, we'd see the day

when nobody died

we'd see the day when nobody died

im pacing by the phone, cause' i hate to be alone

2006-05-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

DANCE ME AWAYY-
hahaa, today i had to wake up at like DAMN EARLY. theres no school today BUT i had to go back to school to help nat with the mass dance. PLUS, im not even gonna be there to perform it! WHY!? because of the sec3 netball carnival. oh, nevermind! i know i'll have fun there!(: anyways, the dance turned out okay, surprisingly, PEARLY CAN SHAKE HER BOOTAYE! hahaha.
oh and on sunday, went to watch the da vinci code right. YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. THE BLOODY TICKET GUY REFUSED TO LET US IN CAUSE HE SAID IM NOT 16 YET. LIKE WHAT THE FUCKK. BUT THEN IN THE END TESS AND I GOT IN BY ARGUING WITH THE DUDE, WE WERE NEARLY SHOUTING! HAHAH. I WAS DAMN PISSED OFF. THEN THE MANAGER ALLOWED US IN!(: HAHAH. TESS AND I ROCKK!
retreat yesterday was kinda fun. but sleepy, hahah. went to kfc with chelsea, clare and natty. then met rach, eunice and cleris, so chelsea and nat went back to school for ballet. and the rest of us went to the library. OHOHOH! then when i left the library for tuition, i was in a hurry. and i accidentally put a library book into my bag! -.- i didnt know until i was leaving tuition and putting my books back into my bag. hahah. STUPID ME. i wonder why the alarm thingy didnt go off when i walked out the library. sigh. didnt get much sleep last night. im sleepy -yawn-
I MISS MY CADBURY BABYY):

wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all

nothing seems to be

nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have

like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger

tonight I'm not afraid to tell you What I feel about you.

oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

and cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

for you I will

forgive me if I st-stutter from all of the clutter in my head

cause' I could fall asleep in those eyes like a water bed

do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times

no more camouflage, I want to be exposed

and not be afraid to fall

oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

and cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

for you I will

you always want what you can't have

but I've got to try I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

for you I will

if I could dim the lights in the mall and create a mood, I would

shout out your name so it echos in every room, I would

that's what I'd do, that's what I'd do

to get through to you

yeah

oh, I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

and cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

for you I will

CANT LIVE WITHOUT MY MENTOS SEXAYYE<3

2006-05-21T11:26:00.000+08:00

TRAINING YESTERDAY WAS FUN!(:
well, kinda. but the sec4s didnt come. we had umpire training, teo jin leng taught us the basic thingys. then we went up to the netball courts to train and stuff. shona and tat were umpires first, they were damn funny! shona was like '-BLOW- eh, what ah? ohoh! CONTACT!' hahahah. we were all laughing like crazyy.
and the netball club people came also, and the sec3 AUDREY was there too! then when they called 'AUDRRREEEEEY!' both of us would scream 'WHICH ONE?!' then they called me small audrey-.- nevermind.
we still had fun. so yea, we're gonna umpire at the sec3 netball carnival on wednesday, meaning i cant be in the sec1 interclass captains ball competition thingy. i hope 1/7 does well! ah, and the dance steps aren't READY. natalie yong sok mun! YOU AH, YOURE THE DANCE I/C! and y'know what. she hasnt come up with anything, but whatever. still love her. i hope the dance doesnt screw up!(:
DO A GOOD JOB OHKAY 1/7ERS? gonna watch the da vinci code later! IM SO EXCITED. i absolutely loveloveLOVE the book. plus, AUDREY tautou is the main actress. HA, ive never heard of her luh.
YAYY. I LOVE THE DA VINCI CODE<3

2006-05-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

AH! I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS!
I HAVE NEVER EVER EVER failed so many subjects in my whole life. in fact, the only subjects ive ever failed is chinese and math. chinese is understandable, but i only failed math ONCE, by half a mark. AND NOW?! I FAILED 4 SUBJECTS. OHMYZOD. AND I FOUND OUT THAT THOSE PEOPLE WHO FAILED MORE THAN 3 SUBJECTS, THEIR PARENTS HAVE TO GO SEE THE THEODORA TAN. AH! IM SO DEAD LUH. MY PARENTS MUST BE SUPER DISAPPOINTED, IM THE STUPIDEST IN MY WHOLE FAMILY LUH):
rawr. anyways, my friends cheered me up(: THANKS ALOT! and then we had captains ball practice. found out that netballers cant play cause' we're going to the sec3s netball carnival to be umpires on that day. poo. anyways, i helped my class captains ballers train.(: it was fun. oh, we got our MYCOPYRIGHT card thingythingy. its nice! hahaha.
after school nat and clare had a fight over me, HAHA. clare wanted me to go to jay8 with her and nat wanted me to stay back with her till her ballet started. but obviously, clare won. BECAUSE, what was i supposed to do after nat went for ballet? SORRY NATTYBABYY. yea, so went to jay8. went windowshopping for a while. took neoprints, and BOUGHT SOCKS! HAHAH. socks is my favourite word. SAY IT- SOCKS! hahaha. then went to eat ice-cream! ALL THIS WAS SPONSORED BY CLARE(: thanks loads luh. i was broke): haha. met claudia and uh, abigail? is that her name? ive forgotten. anyways, went home and clare stayed at jay8 until she had to go to church.
here i am.
stoning.

2006-05-18T15:38:00.000+08:00

FUCK IT!
I FAILED MATH, CHINESE AND GEOG! ARHH. TODAY WAS SUPER FUCKING FUCKISH PLEASE. I WISH SOMEONE WOULD COME UP TO ME AND JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD!
IM IN NO MOOD NOW.
okay nevermind, at least theres someone here to comfort me. BUT YEA. i still dont feel like telling you just HOW much my fucking day fucked up. so, here are the lyrics to the nicest song ever-

romance is gone, he's drifting with the stars

the lyric in his pocket, little girl in his heart

he's on God's top ten

where heaven never ends

you saw the world

and the world saw you on the stage

wild, wild, wild, the lonlier boy

your gypsy heart is free

pictures on the wall, of your family

he's on God's top ten

where heaven never ends

he's on God's top ten

baby's got mama's eyes, she was always beautiful

when you hear his voice, feel his arms around you

you remember mama's smile and daddy's little girl

bad weather, cold meteor storm

he's on God's top ten

where heaven never ends

he's on God's top ten

2006-05-17T18:28:00.000+08:00

MANKY LOVES TIONG!(:
HAHAH, okay i know youre like ' WHO THE HELL IS MANKY AND TIONG?!' haaaaaaaah. manky is amanda choong and tiong is our city slickers instructor! she is SOSOSOSOSOSOSO in love with him luh! you should just SEE the way she acts around him please. HAHAHAHHAHAHHA, i think its super funny. anyways, our group was called IMOS - in memory of sarah.
we had to go around town looking for stupid things. but it was fun luh. then at burger king i met jaime dear! took a pic then we quickly went to eat(: I HAD TO PAY FOR ELIZABETH KOW'S LUNCH OHKAY! but heck luh, im nice(: went back to school, had debrief. took ONE MORE lovely pic with jaime honey and jocelyn baby! PLUS LIZZI, who was uh, extra. BUT I STILL LOVE MY BODOBALL!(: walked to mrt station with clare, she was low): but whatever. we saw rach at the platform and scared her from behind! hahah,
went into my own train and sat down, then there was this guy staring at me. then i didnt dare to look up the whole ride back home luh!
and then i found out today that WE HAVE UMPIRE TRAINING this saturday! gah, HAD TO CANCEL MY PLANS TO PLAY NETBALL WITH HAWA AND THE REST): i miss her like SHIT! i feel damn bad! i was supposed to bring the netball this saturday, now i cant go. and they have no ball!
GAH. ): i feel super bad.
SORRY HAWA DEAR!

2006-05-16T16:13:00.000+08:00

BEING A VICE-CHAIR IS SO ARH!
i was screeeeaming my lungs out at the class today, together with sherlyn. seriously, ONESEVEN DOES NOT KNOW WHAT SHUTUP MEANS.gah, anyways, we managed to get the 12 players and 14 banner painters and dunno how many choreographers. YAY!(: but still, my throat was all screamed out.
after recess, we had this BORING talk on e-learning or something. after THAT talk, we had another one. but it was more interesting. there was this super nice woman whos a counsellor who came to talk to us about conflicts. then she needed volunteers for role playing and dear clare went up and then nat plus the rest of them FORCED me to go so i went. it was quite fun luh. hahah.
poor nat has dance prac everyday! cause' dance night is coming soon.(: cant wait! i hope her tummy doesnt hurt anymore, poor girl! ):
tmr theres this city slickers thingy, and we have to go to orchard.
i wonder what its about.

2006-05-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

HELLO(:
yay, went shopping today. it was fun(: oh and the party that day? IT WAS A DISASTER. i forgot to ask everyone till last minute. and so little people could come cause' i stayed like, so damn far away from everyone else, and they didnt have transport back home! GAH. i mustmust remember to invite people earlier. STUPID RACH AND CLARE DIDNT COME! it wasnt much fun without them ): at least sam thought of the number game thingy. but still, it was boring. -.-
ian's gonna cook tmr, for mother's day lunch. i hope its gonna be as good as lastlast week's dinner! hahah. then on monday clare and nat and maybe rach are coming over to SUN TAN! yay!(:
CLARE AND HER STRIPY BIKINI): i want!

2006-05-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS FUN!(:
had chinese exam, i think i might pass. YAYNESS(: and then went to plaza sing with nat, jiahui, rachael and clare. we went to watch AQUAMARINE. it was kinda ohkay, like any other chick flick. y'know, predictable ending, blahblah.
but whatever, clare and i were laughing our asses off at almost the whole show. even the un-funny parts. it was damn spastic! like the whole theatre, and only both of us laughing. -.- we found almost every scene funny, dont know why. maybe the guy at the snack bar spiked the cheese for our nachos! HAHA.
went to take neoprints! took quite alot. i bought a present and a card for my mom. then we went BIKINI TRYING! hahah. only clare and i larh, the rest all thought we were mad. went into a shop, TRIED ON THIS SUPER NICE BIKINI! ahaha, clare tried a black and fuschia one. then nat, rach and ashley saw me in the bikini and ashley was like 'ohmy, she has a nice body!' HAHAH, I WISH! and clare didnt wanna show us -.- BOO. went into another swimsuit shop and we found a really cool one piece swimsuit, there was yellow and black so i tried yellow and clare tried black. i think it looked weird on me. looked kinda nice on clare though. nat's coming over EARLY tmr morning and we're going to heeren to SHOP!<3>
anyways, EXAMS ARE OVER! oh yea, check this out. i feel mean cause' mothers' day is coming- but WHO CARES.

A SONG FOR NAGGY MOMS; YOURE SO ROTTEN

youre always telling me to do things like you do.

youre always telling me my room looks like a zoo.

well, i dont care.

so there.

youre always telling me that you dont like my mood.

youre always complaining my friends are rude.

well, i dont care.

so there.

i really hate you, yes i do.

do i really hate you?

yes, i do.

you never listen to the things i gotta say.

whenever i need you, you turn and walk away.

well, i dont care. so there.

im so angry, yes i am.

am i really angry?

you bet i am.

so there, i dont care.

i really hate you, yes i do.

do i really hate you?

yes, i do.

2006-05-09T14:19:00.000+08:00

I SO DIED-ED DURING SCIENCE YESTERDAYY.
GAH. it was super difficult please! SHOOT ME. i wish i actually paid attention during prac lessons, i mean like studying the textbook is one thing, and understanding the chemical thingythings is another. -.- poo. WHYWHYWHY do the prac lessons have to be the first two periods in the morning? grrr. IM GONNA FLUNK SCIENCE AND GEOG.
but at least i didnt screw up math(: YAY. oh speaking of YAY right, im like talking to nat and priscilla, the girl from 2/8 and their talking about a YAY!gang. ahaha. YAY, im INNIT.
tmr after chinese rachael, nat, clare, me and some other people are gonna watch a moooovie. hope it aint aquamarine-.- WANNA WATCH DA VINCI CODE! cant wait for 18th may!
WISH ME LUCK FOR CHINESE TMR!(:

2006-05-05T16:44:00.000+08:00

today was WAYWAYWAY shittier than yesterday.
chinese, was of course a badbad paper. but geog was like, A NIGHTMARE! i swear! i have no idea why the hell we have to learn geog, y'know i can get LOST with a fucking map. i totalled up all the questions i didnt know at all, and the ones i kinda knew i was gonna get half wrong, and i subtracted it from 100. i got 63! AT LEAST I KNOW I MIGHT PASS!
and the other superduperfuckaliciosly shitty thing was that sarah left today. it was kinda funny, cause we all rushed to the airport after geog and met sarah. and then we planned to go to macs. her mom kept coming over to us while we were walking and said to sarah 'BABY, remember to come back to the boarding place by THREE OKAY? must remember ah, if not the gate close on you okay?' and sarah was like 'close then close larh' when we were at macs right, all of us were laughing like shit and sarah and me were throwing fries at meishi. i cant remember why though. walked back to the boarding place where sarah's sister and her friends were sitting on the floor chatting. spotted shona and said HELLO. at that time yuan, nat and stefanie were alrdy crying then i was like 'SHIT! i feel like im gonna cry but no tears are coming out!' and then sarah heard and started laughing while crying.
when she actually went in, i started crying like shit. rachael and i were hanging on to each other until we stopped crying. natalie and stefanie were like, HYSTERICAL. poor people. ):
i love you sarah! i'll send you stuff while youre in america. cheer up babe, youve still got us here, in singapore.
oh yea, here are the pics we took at the library yesterday-

i open my eyes, i try to see but i'm blinded by the white light

ooh.

BIG me and little natalie

LOVE YOU TRUCKLOADS HONEYPIE!<3

2006-05-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

today was shitty.
number one- ITS LIKE THE FOURTH OF MAY. Y'KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS?
number two- SARAH'S LEAVING TMR. ):

sarah, yuan, amanda, rachael, nat, eunice and i went to the library after the exam and then we were all laughing and stuff, until suddenly we realised sarah was crying. i held her for about godknowshowlong. i dont want her to go tmr but if it isnt tmr, its next week.
somehow, one day she'll have to go. and that day is tmr.
stay strong for us, sarah. you know we love you. we wont EVER forget you.

i love you sarah, cheer up ohkay!

2006-05-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

I AM SAD.
CANT YOU JUST TELL THAT IM SAD? I THINK ITS OBVIOUS HUHH. okay, anyways, sarah's leaving for america either this week or next week due to some problems.
WELL, I HATE YOU, SARAH'S MOM. HOW COULD YOU TAKE HER AWAY FROM US HUH.
went to Junction8 with sarah, rachael, stefanie and mich after school just now. mich got damn exceited when she heard some people talk about masturbation. (: DONT DENY MICH! AHAH.
ohkay, im going to studyyy. history exam comin' up!
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

2006-04-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE COMING!
im like so chiong-ing. i regret not paying attention in geog. well, i do, but its so boring that i just start to day-dream and chat and doodle. im going to be ULTRA hardworking this coming weekend and next week.
lemme show you my calendar of 'events' :

29april (saturday)-revise math chapt 1-4//revise science stuff (memorise chem equations)//do math tuition hwk
30april (sunday)-math tuition//revise geog chapt 1 and 2//school homework
1may (monday)-revise history chapt1-2//revise geog chapt 3-4
2may (tuesday)-revise history chapt 3-4
3may (wednesday)-math tuition//revise overall history
4may (thursday)-history midyear-exam!//chinese tuition//revise overall geog
5may (friday)-geog and chinese paper1 midyear-exam!
6may (saturday)-revise science chapt 1-4//revise math chapt 5-7//do school hwk(if there's any)
7may (sunday)-math tuition//revise science chapt 7-10 plus 12 from book two
8 may (monday)-science midyear-exam!//revise overall math
10may (wednesday)-chinese paper2 midyear-exam!
11may (thursday)-PARTEHHPARTEHHPARTEHH! (:

2006-04-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

hello world(:
today was boring.
first 4 periods before recess we didnt do any REAL learning cause' we had art and then during english, mrs roch played a movie for us. and then the period after recess was lit and mrs vincent wasnt here today so we watched ANNE OF GREEN GABLES. seriously, its like the most boring show ever.
i'll show you some pics we took the past few days. one particular one is of sarah raping me =/

PILING UP! (:

minutes after our english mid-year exam(:

she danced her way into my heart, right from the start.

my honey pies! <3

spastic-ated

so happy together!

sarah sweeps me off my feet <3

sarah at work - raping me =/

you never know how precious it is till its gone.

2006-04-25T15:44:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAH
i changed my skin again. I COULDNT HELP IT. i like this. (: thanks jaime for your expert advise on the skins i had picked out just now! ahha.
here are the pics the traffic light buddies -sam(red), me(green) and jocelyn(yellow)- took at marche that day(:

the traffic light buddies in the toilet at marche(:

green*yellow*red

smile for the camera!

everlasting memories.

sam, audrey and ME (im audrey too)

oh yes, today's english exam was much easier than i expected.

anyways, whos complaining? (:

2006-04-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

im gonna miss the sec4 and 5 netballers!
on thursday after the finals (read 21st April's 'Today' paper to find out the score AND to see a very unglam pic of celeste), we all went to marche and it was damn sad! i'll miss them alot, theyre the ones who make netball crazy (:
even though our cdiv lost, its okay! we'll train harder than ever to get back the title of champs! congrats to bdiv netballers! (: nicely seniors!
anyways, im gonna do my work now =/ exams are coming! gotta chiong! hahah. i know youre surprised that IM studying.
oh yea, i changed my skin once more.

2006-04-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

I KNOW YOU MISSED ME(:
i havent blogged in super long please. actually, i havent even BEEN ONLINE for damn long. im computer deprived or whatever. well, we beat RGS 29-27 during the semi-finals. YAY FOR IJ! yesterday's training was the last saturday training for the sec 4s and 5s. it was HELL. coach made us do all three drills : hexagon, triangle and pitter patter. and she made us sprint like crazy too! but at least the first teams got gumy bears. in the end coach gave everyine the whole bag of gummy bears (: eunice, amanda and natalie waited for me to finish training then we all went to nat's place to do our ZOO PROJECT. i did like 99% of the work! -.- anyways, nat helped (: I LOVE YOU MY DARHLINNG PARTNER. unlike amanda and eunice who slacked the whole afternoon.
it was fun anyways.

2006-03-30T10:02:00.000+08:00

HEYY PEOPLE.
i have a geog test at 12 laterr. poopoo. i suck at geog, its impossible to understand! oh yea, we dont have to go to school today (other than the stupid geog test) because ITS SPORTS DAY!
plus, its yuan may's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUAN MAY!

hope you get whatever you want to get. you probably wanna pass geog but yea, i dont think we'll pass.

2006-03-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

hello.
today has got to be the unluckiest day ever. i burned my thumb, index and middle finger during first period of science prac. i was boiling this chemical thingo, i dont remember the name of it, and then i accidentally dropped it then i have NO IDEA what the fuck happened but my hand touched the hot test tube and i die-ded. it was so fuckingly painful! now my fingers are mutated looking things. EURGH. and then after geog, i fell and then my knees and elbows are fucked up. wonder whats gonna be next. OHMYGOD.
MY FACE!

2006-03-21T19:21:00.000+08:00

HEYYYY (:
today IJ played against Regent. and we won. (: haha. 70+ - 3 then we went back to school, lindsay, angela and i went to buy the ice ball thingy. the after that, SOMETHING DAMN FREAKY HAPPENED. -.- seriously. and lindsay and jocelyn keep making fun of me. GRRRR.
oh yea, tmr the whole sec 1 level is going to the ZOO!
sounds fun?

2006-03-17T09:14:00.000+08:00

hello world.
its a brand new day and birds are chirping, ants are crawling around with shoes stepping on them and people who are aching. people like me. dunno why but when i woke up my back was aching. OH NO! im gettin oooold. whoops. loos at the time (: its getting late, gotta go to school for banner painting.
kays, toodles!

2006-03-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

HELLO EARTHLINGS :D
i just got back from dinner with my mom. trng today was so-so. we didnt do hexagon today, coach taught us a new thingy. cant remember all 10 except the first one (: hahah. EEEEEEYEEEEEEEER! i need to improve my timing.

ineedtoimproveineedtoimproveineedtoimproveineedtoimproveineedtoimprove

oh and guess what. I KNOW THONGS' SECRET! heehee. well, i think its a secret. she seemed damn shocked when she knew i knew (: look at her testi :

YELLOW CARD YELLOW CARD :Dyay! after so longggg. i found a yellow card FAN *CLAPS (: SHHH! it is supposed to be a secret wokay? YOU PROMISE NOT TO TELL ANYONE? hurh. A PROMISE IS A PROMISE. if you're weird. i'm weirdER eh? HURMPH. i'll ignore you on SAT. you watch out RUDOLPH. :DD wokay lurh. why am i so mean? :DD takecare then. i'll see you SOON.MUCH LOVE; thongs(: I<3tyou

AHAHAHAHAHA!! watch out thongs!

2006-03-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

WE WON SOUTH ZONE! WE WON SOUTH ZONE! WE WON SOUTH ZONE!
WE WON SOUTH ZONE!! (:
i've lost my voice. but who cares?
WE WON SOUTH ZONE! which means we beat RGS. both our C div and B div beat RGS!
C div - 24-23
B div - 41-31
wheeeeeeeeeeee! im gonna bathe now (:
<3>

2006-03-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

pffft
they left for Sentosa without me. i just woke up, my eyes are still half closed and my brains aren't working right. but i know they left for sentosa without me. grrrr. oh wells, at least i got 10 hours of sleep. (: i think im gonna go back to sleep..

2006-03-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

i changed my skin again for the third time this week.
i swear i wont change it again :D

2006-03-03T17:22:00.000+08:00

HELLOOO
today almost almost all our subject teachers that were supposed to teach us didnt come to school today : mrs zailee, mr lim, miss chong left halfway to attend a funeral and mr tang. and then after school i followed lindsay, hui jie, janice and steph to the interchange to have lunch. janice taught me how to take the MRT back to tampines. and she TRICKED MEEE! well, she tried to. (: hahah. and she kept LAUGHING at me cause' i was so blur. hello? i have never taken an MRT from toa payoh. at least i learnt todayy. and stupid janice and steph saw my EZ Link card! they laughed non-stop -.-
im gonna be a guai kia and try to do my math hwk since thats the only hwk we have today.
seeya! <3

2006-03-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
i hate the sun i hate the sun i hate the sun! it was superduper hot yesterday please. all of us nearly got heat stroke. the worst thing was that my 2.4 deproved by ONE WHOLE MINUTE! coach tortured us during training. i nearly cried larh. so exhausted. Evil was almost crying also i think. grrrr.
i fell asleep in science,mt and math today -.- nearly got scolded by miss chong today. poo. whats new? hahah. eunice is nuts over Marianne and Debs from basketball (: and shes absolutely terrified of Sheila. hahaha. she said she might cut her hair like Jewel's sister! i cant imagine -.-
im gonna buy new school shoes later. yayness. i lost my old ones at NUS. oh yea, i changed my skin AGAIN! you like?
tag please. (:
toodles! <3

2006-02-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

HEYYAAAAAAAR!
i havent blogged for quite a while(: anyways, IJTP netball got into semi-finals. NO SURPRISE! hahaha. we played really badly against cedar today and coach was screaming her lungs out -.- but at least we won, though the score sucked. when we went back to school i bought cup-noodles from 7-11 and then Avis started attacking my food so everyone else started eating my food too. and stupid rachel wong kept purposely dropping Poki biscuits sticks into my noodles. -.- and Evil kept going on about how me and Shir look SO ALIKE. so now we're the twins! (:
that day i went back to hgs again to see the netballers train. they have a new coach now! some old ang moh dude whos bald. no one was listening while he talked. louya larh he. today miss horse-face chong didnt come! (: we were playing around and making videos in math class. hahah. Jaime is so poor thing, today after the match she went home and had tuition straightaway. and now shes complaining that shes damn tired.
YAAAAAY!
i finally finished my lit project(: but i cant print it out! dumbass printerr.

2006-02-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

HEYY!
OHMYGOD. hawa just reminded me about the stuff we did when we were primary 4. i remember mrs chin always picking on me. asking me to stand outside the class almost everyday for nothing. okay maybe not nothing -.- and the time she made me MODEL the new uniform (you know the brown collared PE shirt and the quillocks or whatever) in front of the whole bloody school. IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING! but she picked me cause' im sexayye (: hurr. just kidding.
and HARRY POTTER! gosh. that was so weird. hahaha. jilyn, hawa and i were the bestest of best friends. hawa and i are still besties but jilyn sort of floated away hahaha. hawa MIGHT be transferring to IJ next year since stupid miss theodora tan said she cant now. I SO WANT HER TO COME! (: ohkay im too lazy to go on typing.
loves hawa many many much much. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, GIRL!

2006-01-25T18:49:00.000+08:00

I WENT BACK TO HGS TODAAAAY!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I LOVE PRIMARY SCHOOL! when i reached hgs, the p6es were having supplementary, so i walked up to the 4th level then the first class i saw was MRS ONG'S CLASS! so i waved from outside then she walked out. then we had a long conversation. mostly she asking the questions. heres the SUMMARISED version (: hahah :

hello audrey!

hey mrs ong!

why didnt you come with the TKGS girls that day? they asked me where you were so i told them i dont know.

oh, i was really busy last week so i couldnt make it.

(and then she looked really closely at my school badge)

eh now what school are you in arh?

oh im in CHIJ Toa Payoh now.

do you like it there? are the people there nice?

uhh. yea. kind of (smilesmile)

so can you cope with secondary school work?

yea, i guess so!

mmmm. youre so skinny now! must eat more okay?

really? hahaha. no la.

really! so skinny!

oh yea, i have something for you mrs ong (i gave her the gift)

oh thank you so much! (smilesmile)

i think i should go now, bye mrs ong!

okay, you take care okay? see you!

HAHAHHAHA. no, im not skinnier. i gained 1 kg and grew one cm! YAYNESS (: anyway, met MARIBETH (yesyes, that used-to-be-psychotic-mad-haired-girl) in the canteen. shes in IJ katong now. also met up with Tashyra, Shermaine, Mashara and Hafsah! all of them in Damai Sec. their school sounds so fun (: hahha. walked around school like a thousand times, hgs suddenly seems so small. saw Matilda Sim the p6er at the basketball, so we talked and talked. she gave me a bookmark! its so nice. i feel so guilty -.- okay, i gotta go now (:

toodles!

2006-01-22T11:03:00.000+08:00

i had training yesterday!
it wasnt so bad la. but my legs are still aching like hell -.- cant walk properly. i bought shoes for training yesterday, theyre white and blue. so that i can wear them to school on training days (: im too lazy to bring a shoe bag. then we went to watch MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA! it was so sad. but it had a happy ending! wheeeeeeee. oh crap. sorry yuan may and nat and amanda choong and eunice for watching it without you guys! OOPS. im really sorry! poo. maybe we'll watch another movie since yuan may's mom thinks its bad just cause' it has sex scenes. HAHAHA.
by the way, elizabeth tan said that guys wolf-whistle at her in anglican high. I WANT TO SEE!

2006-01-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

im starting to hate netball. if it was ever possible, that is. i hate trainings. tmr i have training, and im sick. ): poo. i still have to go though.
eurgh.

2006-01-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

lesbian alert. lesbian alert.
stop STICKING to me!
please. please. please?
you know who you are.
although you dont know my blog.
but nevermind.

2006-01-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

HELLOHELLOHELLO!
yesterday was so fun! we had to go back to school for the CCA carnival! and those performing arts groups were performing. and THEN (this was one of the funniest things ever) the BASKETBALL BUTCHIES PERFORMED! WHOOOOOOOOOTS! it was so cute! i was like 'ALL THE WAY BUTCHIES!! WHEEEEE!!' then this girl from 1/6 stared at me like i was crazy. i think her sis is a butchie too (: but i dont think anyone else heard me cause' the hall was NOISY when the basketballers came on (everyone was screaming) and Joan led us to the track/basketball court/netball court area where all the booth thingiies were. the butchies CAME TO US! they were all like 'JOIN BASKETBALL! ITS VERY FUN! YOU CAN GO TO ALL THE OTHER BOOTHS AND LOOK-LOOK THEN COME TO OUR BOOTH. ACTUALLY, DONT NEED TO GO AND SEE LA. JUST COME STRAIGHT TO THE BASKETBALL BOOTH' and they gave me stickerssssss!! i think some of the basketballers think im butch too. when they were trying to convince all of us to join netball, they kept TALKING TO ME ALONE. like staring at me while they talked. DO I LOOK BUTCH TO YOU ALL?! and then i saw how lonely the netball booth looked and remembered that sze said that she'd give me lots of netball stickers so i ran over. AND SZE GAVE ME LOADS OF STICKERS AND PAPER THINGIES. I PASTED THE STICKERS ON MY FACE AND UNIFORM AND SOMEONE HELPED ME SCOTCH-TAPE THE NETBALL PAPER THING TO THE BACK OF MY PINAFORE. i was a walking netball advertisement. it was fuuuuuuun. i still have all the stickers. and i stuck the one the butchie gave me on the inside of my locker door. (THE BUTCHIE TOUCHED IT!)
dream it.love it.play it. JOIN NETBALL YOU PEOPLE! (:

2006-01-13T16:22:00.000+08:00

YAAAAAAAAY!
its friday the 13th. but NEVERMIND. its still a friday! WHOOOOTS! fridays rule. its hazel's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MEIMEI.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

hahaha. anyways, today was an ordinary schoolday. okay maybe not so ordinary, cause' MISS CHONG THE HORSE-FACE DIDNT SCOLD ANYONE! hahhaahhaha. she wasnt PMS-ing i guess. and i had to buy a new calculator. i lost mine yesterday ): oh and mrs krishna aint gonna be our history teacher anymore. so sad. EAT MORE PRATA, THINK MORE KRISHNA! hahahaaah. tmr we have a CCA thing. have to be in school by 8 i think. im BORED. heehee.
hawa just realised that Grimmauld Place sounds like Grim Old Place if you say it really fast. i never realised it myself! you people who read Harry Potter should know what the hell im talking about. HAHAHHAH. ohmygod. does anyone remember me and hawa when we were primary 4? THAT WAS SO CUTE MANN. hahah. we had special names. whheeee! we were LAME, we still are. and forever will be (: i want my prata yuan may.
WHERE'S MY PRATA?

2006-01-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

I DONT LIKE MISS CHONG! BOO HER!
shes mean. she made me stand up in class for like half a period for NOTHING. that bitch. and she says that if we dont bring what she asks us to bring, then depending on what day of the month it is. like if its the 21st, then we must give 21 bucks to the class fund. im not going to tell you what happened AFTER she told us that was the punishment. it was quite funny though. she thought yuan may was called Germaine at first, and then yuan min. hahaha. shes DEAF.
oh i took my AEP test yesterday! i had to draw my own shoe. i had to take off my shoe and put it on the table in front of me and draw. (karman thought i had to keep looking down at my foot to draw it) and i had to write reflections on the shoe below my drawing. AND i had to make a 3D object of what i think it can be transformed into or whatever out of satay sticks, and write down how i thought that object was related to my shoe. and sze said something about making an umbrella cause' our shoes protect our feet and blahblahblah. so yea, i made an umbrella out of satay sticks and maskin tape! (:
hawa is so lucky. her parents know a MP or something, so that MP person is helping her to get into TKG. aaaaaaaaaaah. luckyluckyluckylucky! and su said that there's this girl in her class, who we saw at the PRIMARY YOUNG LEADERS DAY thing who was bursting all the balloons. hahaah! i saw her when i went to TK for the appeal too! thinking of this reminds me of that young leaders talk thing. it was quite fun though we had to sit there for about 6 hours or so. su ling, me, eleanor and sarah wee went with 10 primary 5 prefects and 6 primary 4 pupil leaders last year a few weeks after PSLE. i had to go cause' krystal was in australia. if not, eleanor would have picked her! (: so su picked me instead. we learned LOADS about what a good leader is and stuff. but after that, we just forgot most of it. hahaha. OH AND I STILL REMEMBER THE BUS RIDE BACK TO SCHOOL! i started doing really retard-looking faces and then su tried. su rocks at it. she really looked like she had down's syndrome or something.
anyways, BYE PEOPLE!
remember, eat more prata, think more krishna! (:

2006-01-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU SZE!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. <33okay. lemme just start by telling you who Sze is. SHES MY PEER SUPPORT LEADER AND SHE ROCKS! ALL THE OTHER PEER SUPPORT LEADERS SUCK! GO..drink pee or something. (: she told me about the Art Elective thing. so she brought me to this teacher who said i can take the test on wednesday! yaaay. and shes CUTE! (: hahaha. i dont know, but im a little like her i guess. not in the cute way la. but like, the music we like, the shop EBASE (ebase rules mann), we both play netball, we're both in IJ but we aint bimbotic (THANK GOD), we both like art, and shes kinda hyper but quiet. like ME! well, i think shes hyper but quiet. i dont know. i THINK so.
im so happy. there aint school tmr! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! hiphiphooray!!
have a merry one-day-off-from-school people.
toodles. (:

2006-01-08T18:11:00.000+08:00

im having a major headache now. and im dreading school tmr. i hope something will happen when everyone's asleep tonight. maybe, the school will suddenly collapse or something. i REALLY hope so.
pray for me. please?

2006-01-07T18:10:00.000+08:00

im sick!
i've got a really bad sore throat and a feverrr. i just woke up from a 4 hour nap. (: before that, i went for lunch at loyang, bought a lock for the locker in school. then i felt really tired and giddy all through lunch so my mom took me home to sleep! haha. i hope i dont need to go to school on monday. i gotta go take my medicine. bleurgh.
byee. -.-

2006-01-06T16:49:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY!

you know when i came online, i planned to complain and complain and complain about how sucky school is. but I DONT CARE ABOUT THAT ANYMORE!! because, hawa said she might be transferring to IJ!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!! I LOVE YOU HAWA. im happy! for the first time in about 4 days.
i.am.happy.

2006-01-05T19:44:00.000+08:00

i want to DIE.
honestly. i mean, school wasnt as boring as yesterday, but STILL. and guess what? IM IN THE CLASS COMMITTEEE! YAAAAY. no, not yay. this sucks. royally. LIKE WHO THE HELL PICKS PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN PREFECTS LAST TIME TO BE IN A CLASS COMM?! WHO?? apparently, that person is my form teacher cum chinese teacher (by the way, she is NASTEHH). and i cannot believe it, my classmate, Ambra, is super super happy that shes in the class comm! we played loads of games today, for some Peer Support thing. then, there was about 15 minutes free. so Ambra suggested we play Truth Or Dare. when it was my turn, i picked dare. so she dared me to go to the middle of the hall and scream "MY NAME IS AUDREY!!" really loudly. mind you, the hall was FILLED with people. so yea, it was pretty simple. come on, i've danced in the middle of a netball court during tournament (half-time) at TKSS.
krystal thinks TKGS sucks. and cause' of that, she wants to commit suicide. hello?? im the one who wants to commit suicide! TKGS has like a billion ex-HGSians,while CHIJ only has TWO. wowee. TKGS sucks ehh? im so depressed and tired that i think i should just stop thinking.
this ends now.

!!

2006-01-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

heylos.

im not-so-depressed anymore. but i still wanna cry. boo. did i mention im the only girl in class who aint from IJ primary? well, now you know. it sucks right. let me introduce you to one of the IJ cheers. its funny.

IJ COM-MAMA!

OLE OLE AH AH!

IJ COM-MAMA!

OLE OLE AH AH!

IJ COM-MAMA!

OLE OLE AH AH!

CHECK IT OUT!

YEAH!

CHECK IT OUT!

YEAH!

GOOOOOOOO IJ!

and this is my class cheer (we came up with it today) :

I SAY ONE YOU SAY?

SEVEN!!

I SAY ONE YOU SAY?

SEVEN!!

I SAY ONE YOU SAY?

SEVEN!!

1/7 IS HEAVEN!!

theyre both weird. but whatever. okay im really lazy to go on typing.

good night.

ps. - i got my tagboard up! thanks to lizayye (thanks lots)

CHIJ

2006-01-04T19:00:00.000+08:00

GRRRR..

CHIJ is so boring. you should look at the orientation timetable for CHIJ and Hai Sing Catholic and compare. HAI SING IS LIKE SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING! just came back from cheena tuition again. (had to replace the lesson i missed last week) this morning when i went to school, i was like LOST. so scary i tell you. and then i found out that there's only ONE aother ex-HGSian in CHIJ, which is Dianah (the one from 6P last year). -.- not that i dont like her or whatever, but i would have really appreciated it if they put her in the same class as me. i feel like crying my eyeballs out. not like anyone would care.

ciao. ):

nervous!

2006-01-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey!

today didnt go to school. (: had a day 'off'. hahah. i finally found out what class i'm in. 1E7. i hope the people in 1E7 are nice. -.- im so nervous! hahahah. seriously. anyways, since today had o school, went to the Bras Basah library with June. she has no school too. since i already read 4 out of the 7 books i borrowed last friday, i borrowed 5 more. then at about 3.00 plus i left for stupid cheena tuition. sucked big time. although i got a A- for compre. believe it or not?! ME! CHINESE COMPRE! A-! WHAT THE HELL RIGHT. i didnt even understand the questions let alone the dumb passage. i was lifting all the way, AND I GOT AN A-!

this is so not fair. TKGS and Hai Sing Catholic are gonna have Bon-Fire night on thursday. and CHIJ has only 2 days of orientation. the only fun part of the orientation is like the intra-class games. i hope the games arent like lower-primary sports day games. i kinda miss my friends from HGS now. dont know why. i have this weird feeling inside of me. i miss Hawa (LAMERS!), Krystal (shush! no telling!), Natvianne (remember netball practices laughing all the way?), Nadine (thanks for putting up with my shit all through the year), Azri (all the way girl!), Su Ling (we are famous singers, born in 6K 2005 on the 4th floor), Ee Ling (eh audrey, can lend me money not? tmr i SURE return you one.), Hafsah (blur queen), Sarah Wee (promise to stop hitting me. and i cant believe that Pamela lady thought we're SISTERS), and believe it or not even ELEANOR. hahahah. those stupid boring chinese periods spent throwing notes accross class talking about useless things.

i'm going to eat now.

toodles. (: